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Today, I was Impeached

Student Fashion Society had been apart of me. I identified within this club. I found a lane. Public Relations allowed me to practice skills making flyers, posters, working with computer design programs, and interacting with people. Running social media accounts for the school was amazing. At the same time, I was making appearances on the SUNY Oneonta instagram page for my photography. College helped me realize I could do this wherever I was because it was ingrained inside me. But this college had another plan for me once I realized I had been impeached from this same club I helped bring up. I saw every person who signed to have me impeached. It was every single E-Board Member. Everyone had conspired to officiate my department. And just like that, all of these titles that used to define me were left floating in my head. I was not happy. I kept talking to myself and really wanting to talk about what was going on. How could this be happening to me?

In the moment, I was so unable to conceptualize. Could you blame me?

There were a lot of issues surrounding myself in that club. From the moment I gave my brilliant speech which almost demanded a standing ovation when elected, I could sense the tension from the other public representative. Sharing a position with someone of real talent can be intimidating. I was hoping we could work together to bring not only the club to new heights, but the school as well. I radiate positivity and innovation. It would only be an hour later when a wave of good would flush over my life to seemingly wash away all the bad. There was so much anxiety and negativity left floating with the club itself. I wondered if I could show a face at any events. Was my presence even desired in any form?

I decided to go talk to someone. I just wanted to talk about everything going on. I wanted someone to tell me how unfair it was for me. Life works in such mysterious ways. On my way to do exactly that, I stopped a well dressed man. It just so happened that this man was looking for a photographer to pay for sporting events at the school. This was 42 minutes after my mind had been attacked by the club. Geoff and I had built a good and professional relationship since our meeting outside of the gym facility I preferred to workout at. When I got upstairs inside this exact building, I found myself confiding with a basketball coach. She really helped me. All the insight allowed me a deeper connection with myself, my community, and my beliefs. She also offered me opportunities to do photography for her basketball team, which meant a lot to me. It meant I was wanted in so many places that I had no idea. I only put limitations on myself when I was thinking with a closed mind. Opportunities for me were everywhere. And it was due to the type of person I am. I really want the best for myself and my family, so taking advantage of these same opportunities was crucial. I began going to different sporting events to watch athletes play. These same games allowed for me to create some of my best work at the time with editing and sports photography.